The other day hubster and I picked about 7 gallons of tame blackberries at a friends house. We came home and got busy getting them squished and juiced for jelly. We sent the kids on to church and work for a few hours. By this point we were starving so we took a break and went to town to get some supper. We mutually agreed on pizza.
Can I just say that out of any meal I am gonna cheat on, it'll be with pizza. I LOVE it! Give me gooey, cheesy, meaty yumminess and I will eat more than I should every time. We called and got the special of the day. Little did we know it came with cini-stix. Which are equally sinful and yummy. Since it was just us, we ate every single bite. I totally knew I was blowing my diet for this one meal and knew I would get right back on track, but I wasn't prepared for how horrible I would feel the next day.
As I am learning more about endometriosis, I know that wheat and sugar can trigger flare-ups. Well, I had both that day and it set me up for three days of pain. I was not a happy camper. As I was telling mom about it, she said, "Was it worth it?" Of course it was NOT!!! But breaking addictions to sugar and carbs is very, very hard. I want to be healed and well. I hate that my body is infertile and that simply eating pizza reminds me of how much healing my body needs to do. I wish that I could eat what I want and be a normal size. I know that I am taking the right steps to get me where I want to be, I just wish it would happen yesterday!!!
Here's what I do know: God is good. I am relatively healthy, my children and husband are well. I love my life and wouldn't change anything about it, except my health. I am making strides to fix that too! I will get there, eventually.
And what a happy day that will be!
