So Saturday night my lovely parents kept all the grand-kids for an overnight stay, so my husband and I planned a date night. I was so high from losing 2 lbs that week and I had been so good for so long that I decided to have a cheat meal. BAD IDEA! We went to a steakhouse and I already knew I was going to have a crossover meal with steak, veggies, salad and bread with butter. I was fine with this decision. After supper, we did some shopping and then my husband wanted to go to his favorite donut shop. It's a local shop with cute retro stools to sit on and order some great donuts. We don't go here often and I hated to deny him. I knew I couldn't stand the temptation of going in to eat so we went through the drive-thru to get him some donuts.
Why didn't I listen to that inner voice that said, "McKinsey, you know that the minute you get home, you are going to have some of those donuts with a big glass of milk." Of course I told my head that I am STRONG, I've had a great week, I've lost weight and I WILL NOT eat them.
I'm sorry to say I lost the battle with my head. I DID eat those donuts that night. And the next morning too. Which then set me into a pattern of 2/3 on plan, 1/3 off for the next 4 days. UGH! I feel achy, puffy and bloated. It's not that I'm worried that I have gained weight, cause I know once I get back on track, in two days I will be fine. It's that I allowed those old patterns to emerge. In thinking that I am strong enough to withstand these temptations, I took my eyes off my goals. That has cost me 5 days. Which does more to hurt me mentally than physically. I have such a looooong way to go that 5 days is a lot of time to be wishy washy. I'm starting a fuel cycle in two days. I have two days to get my act together and prepare. Doing this with a great group of ladies has helped so much.
I will continue to fight this war, but the battle is kicking my tail at the moment.
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