A time of grief

Grief is a horrible thing for anyone to have to go through.  My sister became a widow six months ago.  This week has been like it just happened for her.  She is in a deep depression and it breaks my heart.  I wish I could make her better.  I wish she didn't have to raise two children alone.  I wish her husband was by her side.  I don't understand why God took him so suddenly, but I do know that God is sovereign and just.  I know good things will come out of this.  I have never lost my spouse, but I do know grief.

     My infertility at times completely sweeps me off my feet.  I will be fine for months, enjoying raising my wonderful adopted children and then suddenly I will attend a baby shower or even hear of a family member being pregnant and suddenly I am back in that dark place of inadequacy.  It hits me right in the gut.  I find myself slipping back into that place of rage, bitterness and heartbreak.  Pleading with God to please heal my body so I can conceive.  God is so good.  He hears my heart, understands my pain and lovingly guides me back to Him.  I love Him so!  Psalms 30:5 says For his anger endureth but a moment: in his favour is life: weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.

In my weakness, He is my rock!  Hallelujah!


As I am traveling on this THM way, I am loving the food I am eating!  I am still trying to get through the book and as I come across a recipe, I try it.  It's been fun so far and I can't wait until my glucomannan comes in and the other things I ordered.  I will be excited to see that amazon box after Christmas.  Here are some dishes I have made so far.

This is chicken fajitas without any shells.  I just sauteed onions and peppers in coconut oil and then removed them, added a chicken breast cut into thin strips and put some homemade taco seasoning on after it had cooked.  I added the peppers and onions back to coat them with seasoning.  I deglazed the pan with a little heavy cream and cheese to make a cheesy sauce which I poured over the chicken and veggies.  It was so delicious!  And very filling.

I made the fooled ya pizza and it was wonderful! My family gobbled it up in ten minutes. They wanted to know when I was going to make it again.

I made the trim healthy pancakes with 0% Greek yogurt and blueberries that I heated until warm and poured them with the juice over it all! I was in heaven!!! I'm loving this book more and more every day.